It was maybe four months ago when my husband messaged me asking me if I would go back to Joburg, if the opportunity arised. A flutter of excitement surged through me. I never thought that could ever happened. We moved here to stay. His work was solid and that was that. On his arrival home, I questioned him. He made it clear that it was a mere discussion amongst work colleagues and nothing serious. He knew that I would move back to Joburg in a heartbeat.
A few months past. I love the Cape. I adore Somerset West. I love/d having my daughter here. I have friends. She has friends. We are comfortable. I love working here. I love the beautiful scenery making my work simple. We miss family but after 3 years, we are settling.
But that is just it. We miss family. Eva now askes for her Gogo. Her Nana. Her cousin Ashton. Daniel and Oliver (aka Oviler). My heart sinks each time. What I would give to let her grow up playing with her cousins and hugging her Granny’s, Grandpa’s, Uncle’s, Aunty’s. I ache to watch her interact with our family. We miss the support too. We are very much alone here. No family close by to call on in need. It is tough.
A month ago, my husband came home with the news that there is a work opportunity for him in Joburg. Wow! Really? It felt surreal. Yes! Yes! YES! BUT wait… I am happy, we are happy. We love it here. We have friends. We have a nice secure home. Raising Eva here is just perfect. Wait, Wait, WAIT! Oh my. NO! Could I really feel like this? So terribly torn.
I am heart sore. Terribly heart sore. I don’t want to leave. I hate change. Am I ready to go back. Go back to what we are used to. Am I ready to start all over again. My heart aches.
We pack up and go at the end of THIS month. YES. January 2014. We bid the beautiful Western Cape a very sad goodbye.
In my sadness I know I have plenty to look forward too. Party’s for Eva WITH her family. Playtime with her cousins. Dinners. Braais. Celebrations. It will be good, I am sure!
Creationography is thus taking a huge step! I will continue to do my work in Johannesburg. I do hope to see you all in the feisty Gauteng! I cannot thank you enough for all your support! I loved working with each and every one of you, and it made my heart happy to provide you with precious memories!
’til we meet again!
Dearest Joburg,
LETS DO THIS!
De Mudder
January 08, 2014
Change involves loss and loss is always painful and often sad. But there are gains, too…. Looking forward to good times, simple, basic stuff. Home is where the heart is :).
Frances
January 10, 2014
Cape Town will surely miss your talent! Thank you for capturing all our precious memories – photographs we will treasure. All the very best to you and your family.